X-Rayed Sex: “Dear First Prospective Top Since Quarantine”

By LeNair Xavier

WARNING: NSFW! Thotyssey presents a bi-monthly column by LeNair Xavier, a writer/poet who has worked in many levels of the sex industry, and has a lot to say about the social politics of sex, porn and sexual etiquette.

Even though some social spaces have started to re-open, I’m sure a number of people are not rushing to go back to hooking up just yet. Sexual as I am, I am one of those people. So I thought I’d share my thoughts of what my versatile self will need to tell the guy who gets the honor of being the first to top me since we went on COVID lockdown. 

Please keep in mind that this is not just an open letter that a bottoming guy should consider paraphrasing to his top. The reason it is an open letter is because while many guys who bottom can relate, some guys who plan to top won’t understand what their prospective guys who bottom are dealing with emotionally, mentally, and physically because of this pandemic.

Dear First Prospective Top Since Quarantine,

Let me be totally honest about what you’re getting yourself into with me.

The last time I bottomed for a guy was the first week of March of this year. It is now August. So we are talking about nearly 5 months since I’ve had the pleasure of a real man’s cock being in my ass.

I had to specify “real man’s cock” because my ass has not been totally void of entry. I have made a couple of XTube and OnlyFans videos in which I rode some dildos. As well as logged onto a couple of virtual jerk-off parties in which I played with my We-Vibe Vector prostate massager. However, like the song says, “Ain’t nothing like the real thing, Baby”. And those uses of sex toys only average to about one quickie per these 5 months. So while my body is hungry, it is by no means physically prepared for the beauty and pleasure of being entered with your real live cock.


My willingness to be entered by you is driven by horniness for a hot guy’s cock that has been building for months now. Just as I imagine your cock has been hungering for a real live ass to enter. So I hope that comparison makes you start to understand, if you don’t already.

Please don’t suggest poppers. I have long strongly advised against them, and I plan to avoid being labeled a hypocrite. For I have in the past taken beer can-thick dicks, been tag-teamed, a tad gangbanged, and fully double-penetrated – all without doing poppers. And still, even in that last encounter before quarantine, getting complimented for a tight hole. So I’m not about to start poppers now. When I bottom, a dick(s) in my ass has always been the one and only high I need, and I plan to keep it that way.

I will admit that making the aforementioned videos were not easy. They were all made with skilled editing. Part of which included me needing to have patience with myself. For some of those dildos going in did not do so as easily as it might have looked in those videos. What is in some of those videos were done after a few takes of working it. With that said, the patience I had to have with myself is the same kind of patience I’m trying to prepare you for needing to have with me now.


So how did I do those videos?

I followed my own rules of L.D.T.R.B. (Lube, Desire, Trust, Relax, Breath). And I plan to do the same with you.

  • I’ve got more than enough lube.
  • Horniness aside, I most definitely desire you, which starts helping in loosening myself enough to let you in.
  • I do trust your intentions with me, and understanding of my needs
  • All of the aforementioned make me able to relax. Thereby loosen myself up even more so to let you in
  • And with that, I can breathe. Taking a deep breath as you enter me to give you the sensation of suction to bring you into me.

Now that you know what I need and want of you since it’s been so long, what do you need and want of me? After all, it takes 2 to tango. So me asking you is only fair. Because the perfectionist that I am wants this get-together to be right.



LeNair Xavier can be found frequently at the Cock, and at various other exhibitionist-friendly venues. He can be followed on Facebook, Tumblr, Twitter and Instagram. He guest blogs occasionally for Kiroo.com.

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